Hey Abstract? When is the last time you took a deep breath? Before a few days ago it had been a long time for me. I was so off…provoked but too defeated to breath. Imagine you are driving to a destination…that particular destination you have heard about or maybe even you passed previously. However, you’re very unsure about how to get there.You put the directions in your GPS and since you think you kinda know the neighborhood, you are relaxed. Instead of listening to the GPS you get lost in your thoughts and now you are lost. You still don’t want to listen to the GPS, instead you “think” you know how to get there. You are wrong, you continue and before you know it you are not only lost you are defeated. Besides your opinion about yourself, you are provoked to get back on track. You have to breathe and say I gotta get to where I need to be.
Well, that short story/metaphor sums up the journey I am on to my dreams. Lately, I have really been provoked…in this instance it’s not a negative. According to Google; to be provoked is to stimulate or give rise to (a reaction or emotion, typically a strong or unwelcome one) someone. My provoker was not someone else it was something I love. It was my dream, my destiny, my need to fulfill my purpose. This week I have been using words that typically have a negative connotation. Words, like haunted or provoked…these two verbs, have been very present in my life. My dreams have been doing these very verbs. They have NOT been inspiring me or motivating me. No! They have been haunting me and provoking me to have action.
Many are called few are chosen, for many years I thought I knew what that meant. There are only a few who have answered the call of their purpose. WE ALL HAVE A PURPOSE…so that’s not so. Here is a simple explanation, Call=purpose, and Chosen=destined. To be chosen means even if they don’t want to answer...destiny isn’t going away. When you are chosen you can’t be content working for someone else. You aren’t content volunteering your talents. You aren’t content doing it on a small scale. You also aren’t content not doing it every day all day. See when you are in fact chosen, it’s not that you don’t want to work a 9a-5p, it’s that you can’t. It’s not that you don’t want it to do your favorite things as a hobby. It is your life and you MUST do it all day every day. You can’t give your time to anything that isn’t that talent, that Art…that Dream! Why, because you are chosen.
Okay let me calm down, I did get a little excited. When I was gone I wasn’t in a creative rut, I wasn’t experiencing depression or even something milder like self-petty. I was going the wrong way thinking I knew the right way and was NOT listening to my GPS to get rerouted. Currently, my life is really good. I’m at another new day job, I make more money and I have more benefits which are really cool. BUT in all my newness I experience being provoked. Why because my GPS (God/purpose) is yelling at me (provoking me) to get to my destination (Dreams).
When you read this I hope you get me. I’m am expressing that you know you have switched from being called into being chosen when you can’t do anything but accomplish your dreams. When not one set back will stop you. When no matter how many times you fail you get back to it. When no matter how many times you reroute, you still keep driving until you reach your destination. The few that are chosen have some choices to make first. So always start by breathing.
Vintage: Scarf, blazer and pajama shorts.
Contemporary: Jessica Simpson shoes, Céline glasses and Charming Charlie earrings
MUSIC:Ariana Grande: Breathin Through